Misunderstanding

Ridiculous!

I was suspected as a GAY! Worst thing in my life!

I have nothing to say about it, since I'm not.

I ain't gonna to argue or explain about it again.

My best friend keeps an arm length from me,avoids me, scares of me...

How will you feel if this happen on you?

And how will you know, how I will feel if this happened on me?

It did happened.

That's not all of them, they spread to the others.

My housemates, roommate, friends, all seems very scare of me.

Satisfied? If you all wanna spread this, go ahead! Since you all doesn't know me at all.

I do care my friends, treating them good and close has became part of my life.

Maybe the ways I'm using to express myself is wrong, but no one tells me.

Now, I learnt. I learnt not to ask questions.

I will keep distance to all my friends.

Not to treat others good not even to my best friends.

Since there is no trust between friends.

He just listen to others. He dont know what happened after he drunk.

I asked him one question before I asked all those silly questions.

Ask me personally if you want to know. I know, this never happens...

It doesnt matter now.

I won't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

I will not cry again for friends. NEVER!

I will smile because this incidence has happened.

Because I learnt to realistic. Treating friends good is just stupid, idiotic.

I will stop all these. I will not searching for best friends again.

Once, I thought friends are everything for me.

It is a happiness to have a best friend in life, because not everyone can find one.

That's why I'm over reacting for it.

I can swear to God. "I'm not Gay"

Please stop mention this again, and please be considerate because this may hurt my girlfriend.

A New Deadly Hair cut!

I got my new hair cut today! I shaved it! Both sides.

Kinda like "LaLa Zai" now.

I'm gonna to have some amendment on my hair tomorrow.

To unLaLa a bit.

Today, my roommate said to me, "Why you so kay poh???"

then I said, "It's caring, you know?"

His answer is Sooooooooo......

Haiz, Not feel like mention it again.

I'm not gonna to give a f**k to everything he does.

Because I just take words from others too much and I knew that I can't take the blow.

He is my roommate, I tried my best to get along with him, but

Nothing went better. He just don't give a F**k to many things, and I'm included.

Everyday, he does his own things, and I'm doing mine.

Not much interaction, except when going out for meals or Uni.

Only one person can enlighten him, everytime he came to our house,

my roommate seems happier, have more words to say. *Not say to me, Of course!*

I'm so wish I can be the one.

I don't know what I did wrongly, maybe I offended him in some ways??

or maybe I'm just paranoid.

I already tried my best, I gave up my favorite badminton and go for Gym with him.

*I chose this on my own, not he asked me to with him*

I'm just don't want to become a plain normal friend to him.

Both of them have many similarities, so they can get along easily.

I tried, I really tried. I scare my gap between them will become further.

I heard my roommate said,"This is language between us!!!"

(Us=My roommate and my best friend)

I'm shocked when I heard that. I really scare to lose my position in my best friend.

That's why I did so many silly stuff.

I always asked the same question to those I acknowledged as my best friends,

"Am I your Best Friend?" I will keep asking,keep asking...

because I need an answer to confirm it. Sounds so weird isn't it?

Yeah, I'm a freak but not gay.

I should have listen to Samuel,

"你不一定要跟全部的朋友都那么好的！你自己拿罪来受就有"

He is the one I'm gonna to live together for one year. Haiz...

Why am I so particular for these kind of things??! It makes me so gay!

So, I'm gonna to ignore many things from now.

After all these things, I nearly died today!!!

When I'm riding motorbike to KTM to fetch my Bibi,

I realized that I forgot to take another helmet for her when I'm in half way.

The mirrors of that motorbike are full of blindspots!

I can't see the cars behind me when I'm making a emergency U-turn at traffic light in front of ACS.

I know I shouldn't make U-turn when the GREEN light is ON!

Two vans honked me kaokao and changed to the other way to avoid knocking me down.

They yelled at scolded me when they passed by,

"Oi !!!!!! MAU MATI KE?? "

I'm dumbfounded. God Bless me I'm still here to write my blog.

If not, my coursemates can't see my new hair style in Uni tomorrow but on the front page of newspaper!LOL!

PS: Pls do not show this post to my roommate, thankyou.

Random

開 始 這 封 的 時 間

—〉 11.05pm

■ 你 的 全 名

—〉 自己不会看啊！

■ 你 現 在 正 在 聽 誰 的 歌

—〉没听歌

■ 你 在 哪 裡 讀 書 / 工 作

—〉Utar, My Choice!

■ 上 一 次 生 日 蛋 糕 上 蠟 燭 的 數 目

—〉1

■ 你 吹 蠟 燭 的 日 期

—〉你问酱多做莫？

■ 你 們 家 養 過 什 麼 寵 物

—〉大把！狗，猫，鱼，仓鼠，炮虎，鸡，鸟，蝌蚪，青蛙，毛虫，蝴蝶，蜻蜓，乌龟。。。多到要死！

■ 星 座

—〉天枰座

■ 有 幾 多 耳 洞

—〉没有

■ 你 有 刺 青 嗎

—〉沒有

■ 你 喜 歡 你 目 前 的 生 活 嗎

—〉不错咯

■ 会怀念初恋吗？

—〉还在初恋和热恋中

■ 有 向 人 告 白 的 經 驗 嗎

—〉有

■ 不 敢 吃 的 東 西

—〉什么都吃

■ 最 喜 歡 吃 什 麼 東 西

—〉老母煮的菜

■ 最 喜 歡 喝 什 么

—〉豆奶

■ 最 喜 歡 的 數 字

—〉12

■ 喜 歡 看 哪 一 種 電 影 類 型

—〉都看

■ 最 喜 歡 的 品 牌

—〉ROMP

■ 最 懷 念 的 日 子

—〉在团契里的日子

■ 最 傷 心 的 事 情

—〉很多

■ 最 想 講 對 不 起 的 人

—＞ 许文浩

■ 最 後 悔 的 事

—＞ 多嘴

■ 最 喜 歡 星 期 幾

—〉星期六

■ 最 喜 歡 春 夏 秋 冬 哪 一 季 節

—〉冬

■ 喜 歡 的 花

—〉 没有

■ 喜 歡 的 運 動

—〉 打飞机，算吗？

■ 比 過 哪 些 比 賽 有 得 獎

—＞ 合唱团

■ 喜 歡 的 冰 淇 淋 種 類

—〉薄荷

■ 討 厭 做 的 事

—〉很心痛时，还要装笑

■ 討 厭 別 人 做 什 麼

—〉出门没叫我

■ 擅 長 的 事

—〉讲话

■ 有 想 過 要 自 殺 嗎

—〉从来没有，想杀人就有

■ 臥 室 的 地 毯 是 什 麼 顏 色

—〉没钱买地毯

■ 以 後 想 做 什 麼 職 業

—〉 赚多钱的就可以了

■ 你 信 有 鬼 嗎

—〉满街都是

■ 你 覺 得 自 己 十 年 後 會 在 哪 裡

—〉已经死了

■ 無 聊 的 時 候 你 大 多 做 些 什 麼

—〉乱乱想

■ 世 界 上 最 惱 人 的 事

—〉每个月尾的担心

■ 覺 得 同 性 戀 呢

—〉喜欢就好，对象不要是我就可以了

■ 如 果 有 人 誤 會 你

—〉解释一次，听不进的话，就叫他去死吧！

■ 有 想 過 要 怎 麼 對 付 你 討 厭 的 人 嗎

—〉超多想拈死他的方法

■ 你 認 為 你 的 另 一 半 幫 你 付 錢 是 理 所 當 然 的 嗎

—〉不是

■ 你 介 意 替 你 另 一 半 付 錢 嗎

—〉非常愿意，要看有没有钱先

■通 常 幾 點 上 床 睡 覺

—〉不定

■ 現 在 心 裡 最 想 見 的 人 是 誰

—〉三个人

■你 想 幾 歲 結 婚

—〉25

■ 今 天 心 情 好 嗎

—〉普通

■ 最 希 望 誰 會 回 信

—〉三个人

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[1] 被 點 到 必 填 ， 不 填 代 表 你 不 尊 重 傳 給 你 的 人 和 問 卷 .

[2] 請 老 實 回 答 每 一 個 問 題 。

[3] 不 行 擅 自 塗 改 題 目 。

[4] 寫 完 請 點 3 0 位 ， 要 點 回 點 你 的 人

A friend in need, is a friend indeed

I thought I could ease my mind,

In fact, I can't.

There is a misunderstanding still going on.

Being emotionless, is really not my type.

I try to be silent.

I can't imagine, if I'm being ignored by another best friend,

I already lost a best friend, I don't know how I lost him,

I don't know the reason, I got no chance to ask,

I don't know what to do, I just apologized with no reason.

I texted him, but no reply.

He deleted my msn, facebook, maybe even my phone number.

I lost a friend that I'm proud of,

I told everyone around me about him,

but now, I scare people asking me about him,

What I can do is just shake my head,

"I don't know".

I can't contact him again,

I don't how he's getting on,

I don't whether he graduated or not,

or he's now working in China dy?

Why?

Having a girlfriend, made you became like this? Unlikely...

My fault? Yeah, maybe.

I just lost contact with him.

Now, really is my fault.

I cracked a joke that spoilt everything.

I know shouldn't crack this kind of jokes.

I apologize.

If you know me well,

I hope you know I didn't mean it.

It's just a joke.

I'm sorry.

(To my dear girlfriend- Please do not ask me about all these, I know you'll be reading. Hope you can understand how I feel.)

All odds against me!

What a day!

I spent whole night tidying my house sambil watching tv until this morning 7.30am,

I already packed all my stuff,

Everything was settled in organised.

After I bathed, I double check everything.

And I found I lost my kampar house keys! FML! Pui!

This time sure die kaokao one!

My dad is waiting for breakfast, foods are ordered,

But I'm still looking for my keys.

My bus is at 8.30am, I rushed to the shop at 8.15am,

I gobbled up a whole bowl of fishball noodles within 5 minutes,

then rush to bus stand.

Luckily, I still able to get on the bus.

After a journey, I do not know that the bus will stop at Tasik Selantan,

FML again! I came to a completely new place,

wearing a very loose short pants (because I kurus a bit dy^^)

wearing a pair of slipper, carrying bunch of bags, and hamsters......

I asked direction and where to purchase ticket like a foreigner...

At the end, no bus at the station can go to kampar. FML again and again.

Luckily got one guy told me to go Plaza rakyat to buy ticket.

When I got on train, I nearly fall down when the train started to move!

WTF, 3 guys grabbed my hand and stabled me...

FML again,again and again...

Sooo 7 pai seh.....

Finally I reached there, I went to my beloved toilet...

When I'm passing motion, I saw blood dripping out from my sphincter!!!

FML again,again,again and AGAIN! Pui!

How tough to take bus from Kluang to Kampar...

But luckily, I got on bus and safely reached Kampar...

And my results also out of expectation...

The stupid Physiology PASSED dy! Hahahahahhaha~

I finally can ease my mind...

But I'm facing another crucial problem...

..................................

...................................

Dunno how to say...

More horrible than meeting a ghost at night...

because I.......

Angel: Shhhhhhh....dun say like that la!

Devil: Say la! If not, you sure kena...............

I'm gonna to listen to my Angel...Shhhhh.....

Love

Love,

Can be a joyous feeling,

But also is the most miserable one.

The joyous is,

You can’t get rid of her from your mind.

Everything you do will make you remind of her.

Thinking of her has become a routine in your life,

How good she is,

How sweet she is,

How angelic she is.

Her smile, her laughter, her voice…

Keep mesmerizing in your mind.

As the time goes by,

You affection towards her, has grown to love.

The miserable is,

Your action to show your affection on her,

may get a negative response.

Don’t know what kind of forces,

made you can’t act normally in front of her.

She maybe always around you,

but you can’t embrace her with your warming arms.

Squeezing your brain each day,

just to get some ideas on how to go for her.

Is awkward that keeps you away from her?

Lacking of confidence?

Or not sure whether you can be a good boyfriend?

Everything is on your own hand.

Gather all your courage,

Take a step forward,

Things may just turn out fine.

Who knows she will like it?

Who knows she also miss you just the way you miss her?

Who knows she is also having affection on you?

Who knows?

Only He knows.

If you failed,

Try again,

again and again.

Never discourage yourself,

Because you LOVE her.

She may be the one who will stand by your forever.

Time is unlimited,

But your life is limited.

Dedicated to all my friends,

[Live as if you will die today,

Dream as if you will live forever.]

End of the world, 2012?

I'm always wondering, the world I'm used to live really gonna to end after one year?

Some say YES!

Some say NO!

But my pessimist friend always implants this idea into my mind,

''The world's gonna to end!!!"

Now I'm also became pessimistic. Thanks to him.

If I really left one year to live on this world, What will I do?

I'm still thinking of this question, but for sure, I will keep the last moment for my Bibi.

My church friend said:

"The world is not chaos and turmoil enough, those natural disasters that happening now still not as worse as described in Bible"

"Countries will attack countries, people will attack people" direct translate from mandarin lar~

I'm still not well prepared for all these,

but I already stopped planning everything for the year 2013....

Typical pessimist......

When I was a boy, I knew that I do not have future,

I just felt this from my bones...

I thought I will die in young age,

but now, I think my life will end in 2012.

"He" maybe knew that long ago,

that's why I'm always in blessed.

Thanks for always stand by me,

Please bless my all my love ones if I'm gone.

Thankyou, my Mr JC