Another unforgettable day in my life

This morning, my doggie died in front of me...

I saw it lying on floor, moaning...

I walked towards and try to move it.

Its body was getting stiff dy.

I'm dumbfounded.

I knew it can't make it anymore...

I slowly sayang its head and body,

and I know it can feel I'm around.

The moaning slowly faded, same to its breath.

It just happened in front of my eyes,

When it heartbeats stopped,

I saw its soul drawn from its eyes...

That excruciating pain on me...

was unable to describe.

I saw it passed away in front of me.

Suddenly, its legs struggled.

I tot it's still alive, and pad its back slowly.

After it moved a bit, it released its bladder.

In that moment, i know its body systems stopped function dy.

It reminded me when I lost my grandpa.

When I was 12, I picked up a phonecall from my dad,

he told me my grandpa passed away while on the way to hospital.

I can't imagine how my father and uncle been through that,

"Own father died just beside them"

The pain, the sadness slowly faded.

Now I felt that same.

Many ppl will think I'm crazy,

"It's just a dog"

Yes, indeed. It's a dog.

but then they are our good companions,

just like you lost your best fren.

Dogs and Humans are living organisms,

life are valuable, it weighted the same on my Libra scales.

Today, another two doggies died also.

Just one day, all my doggies dead.

Is that an coincidence!?

I don't think so.

 

Reality

Another day has gone,
I'm still all alone  JOBLESS!

Fxxk la, I applied 20+ companies, not even one got reply! ccb
Maybe Singapore is a bit hard for me, but then working there,
salary is 2.5x. What an attractive amount....

Without experience, fresh grads are hard to get jobs in S'pore,
I heard some companies not willing to recruit fresh grads,
cos they scare we will quit the job, and go for another job.

Gaining experience is a must,
working at a good position that can lead to better job is also important,
but then, all these works can lead to prosperity?
I don't think so.

How many scientist can drive BMW or Ferrari?
Haiz...
Those who able to afford these luxuries are businessmen.

Why still so many ppl say, "Science, good ah! very good ah! sure can earn a lot!"
Earn tiao lan, salary low like shit!
Hahahhahahahahahaahaa!

All rich businessmen always have a finger in every pie,
no matter legal or illegal,
whatever job tat can lead to good profit then is good.

What I learnt today is,

Interest cant feed myself nor my future family.

Future?

A long time din update my blog dy after uni.
Everyone seems less active in fb after graduated, the whole fb is so calm...same to OBB.

Searching job is not an easy task,
Waiting calls and emails is torturing,
I really scare when the company called me, and I answer:
"Bos, nak beli berape?"
Sure GG tat time...

Finally met my frens and have a nice gathering today,
Everyone seems to have their own planning for future,
but I'm still not sure which path should I go.

Science, are interesting,
but definitely wont lead to high salary,
unless you are the cream of the crops.
Too bad, I'm not the cream.

Passed my Bachelor with so-so results,
I'm glad no need to repeat any subject,
but then, the guity+ness of being jobless increased day by day.

One of my fren, once he was a siaokia like us,
but now, he changed.
He met a lot of ppl out there, he became more mature
and starting to build his network for future purposes.
He did that really well.
Everyone remember his name face and after the first met,
the first impression he gave ppl are quite good actually.

I wanna try to be like him,
building networks...
I can talk, but not much ppl like me.
Tat's the prob. And no one remember me.
Planning for future is important, knowledges are essential,
networks are crucial, good job is vital.

Now, what I can do is, improve my knowledges,
"sikit sikit, lama-lama jadi bukit" haiz....
I'm not perseverance enough to do that anyway.
but at least I'm TRYING.

My new Rabbit^^

After all the research I have done, I finally bought my very first

rabbit^^

My Bibi named it as [牛B]! or pronounced as "Newbie"

My china fren taught me that [牛B] means very geng, ao we decided to named with this.

[牛B]

[The cage]

[Eating Jagung~]

Cute isn't it?

See you again, Fermentation

Totally fucked up.

我变了

我变了，

变得不爱说话，

变得不去理会，

变得不去对别人好，

变得很讨厌听到闲话，

变得不再想解释。

我刚刚竟然盖了最想接到的电话，

我想我真的变了。

Farked up

I screwed my first test - Pendidikan Moral

I wondered:

"How am I gonna to survive for the coming exams?"

"How am I gonna to maintain my CGPA with those super LOW coursework marks!?"

Farked up, this semester really fucked up!

The worst semester I ever had in UTAR.

Fermentation test is around the corner and gonna to freak me off!

Fark You, Fermentation!