A friend in need, is a friend indeed

I thought I could ease my mind,

In fact, I can't.

There is a misunderstanding still going on.

Being emotionless, is really not my type.

I try to be silent.

I can't imagine, if I'm being ignored by another best friend,

I already lost a best friend, I don't know how I lost him,

I don't know the reason, I got no chance to ask,

I don't know what to do, I just apologized with no reason.

I texted him, but no reply.

He deleted my msn, facebook, maybe even my phone number.

I lost a friend that I'm proud of,

I told everyone around me about him,

but now, I scare people asking me about him,

What I can do is just shake my head,

"I don't know".

I can't contact him again,

I don't how he's getting on,

I don't whether he graduated or not,

or he's now working in China dy?

Why?

Having a girlfriend, made you became like this? Unlikely...

My fault? Yeah, maybe.

I just lost contact with him.

Now, really is my fault.

I cracked a joke that spoilt everything.

I know shouldn't crack this kind of jokes.

I apologize.

If you know me well,

I hope you know I didn't mean it.

It's just a joke.

I'm sorry.

(To my dear girlfriend- Please do not ask me about all these, I know you'll be reading. Hope you can understand how I feel.)

All odds against me!

What a day!

I spent whole night tidying my house sambil watching tv until this morning 7.30am,

I already packed all my stuff,

Everything was settled in organised.

After I bathed, I double check everything.

And I found I lost my kampar house keys! FML! Pui!

This time sure die kaokao one!

My dad is waiting for breakfast, foods are ordered,

But I'm still looking for my keys.

My bus is at 8.30am, I rushed to the shop at 8.15am,

I gobbled up a whole bowl of fishball noodles within 5 minutes,

then rush to bus stand.

Luckily, I still able to get on the bus.

After a journey, I do not know that the bus will stop at Tasik Selantan,

FML again! I came to a completely new place,

wearing a very loose short pants (because I kurus a bit dy^^)

wearing a pair of slipper, carrying bunch of bags, and hamsters......

I asked direction and where to purchase ticket like a foreigner...

At the end, no bus at the station can go to kampar. FML again and again.

Luckily got one guy told me to go Plaza rakyat to buy ticket.

When I got on train, I nearly fall down when the train started to move!

WTF, 3 guys grabbed my hand and stabled me...

FML again,again and again...

Sooo 7 pai seh.....

Finally I reached there, I went to my beloved toilet...

When I'm passing motion, I saw blood dripping out from my sphincter!!!

FML again,again,again and AGAIN! Pui!

How tough to take bus from Kluang to Kampar...

But luckily, I got on bus and safely reached Kampar...

And my results also out of expectation...

The stupid Physiology PASSED dy! Hahahahahhaha~

I finally can ease my mind...

But I'm facing another crucial problem...

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Dunno how to say...

More horrible than meeting a ghost at night...

because I.......

Angel: Shhhhhhh....dun say like that la!

Devil: Say la! If not, you sure kena...............

I'm gonna to listen to my Angel...Shhhhh.....

Love

Love,

Can be a joyous feeling,

But also is the most miserable one.

The joyous is,

You can’t get rid of her from your mind.

Everything you do will make you remind of her.

Thinking of her has become a routine in your life,

How good she is,

How sweet she is,

How angelic she is.

Her smile, her laughter, her voice…

Keep mesmerizing in your mind.

As the time goes by,

You affection towards her, has grown to love.

The miserable is,

Your action to show your affection on her,

may get a negative response.

Don’t know what kind of forces,

made you can’t act normally in front of her.

She maybe always around you,

but you can’t embrace her with your warming arms.

Squeezing your brain each day,

just to get some ideas on how to go for her.

Is awkward that keeps you away from her?

Lacking of confidence?

Or not sure whether you can be a good boyfriend?

Everything is on your own hand.

Gather all your courage,

Take a step forward,

Things may just turn out fine.

Who knows she will like it?

Who knows she also miss you just the way you miss her?

Who knows she is also having affection on you?

Who knows?

Only He knows.

If you failed,

Try again,

again and again.

Never discourage yourself,

Because you LOVE her.

She may be the one who will stand by your forever.

Time is unlimited,

But your life is limited.

Dedicated to all my friends,

[Live as if you will die today,

Dream as if you will live forever.]

End of the world, 2012?

I'm always wondering, the world I'm used to live really gonna to end after one year?

Some say YES!

Some say NO!

But my pessimist friend always implants this idea into my mind,

''The world's gonna to end!!!"

Now I'm also became pessimistic. Thanks to him.

If I really left one year to live on this world, What will I do?

I'm still thinking of this question, but for sure, I will keep the last moment for my Bibi.

My church friend said:

"The world is not chaos and turmoil enough, those natural disasters that happening now still not as worse as described in Bible"

"Countries will attack countries, people will attack people" direct translate from mandarin lar~

I'm still not well prepared for all these,

but I already stopped planning everything for the year 2013....

Typical pessimist......

When I was a boy, I knew that I do not have future,

I just felt this from my bones...

I thought I will die in young age,

but now, I think my life will end in 2012.

"He" maybe knew that long ago,

that's why I'm always in blessed.

Thanks for always stand by me,

Please bless my all my love ones if I'm gone.

Thankyou, my Mr JC

Apologize

I'm sorry to my best friend, sorry...
Hope you dun mind.

I deserved it

I flung my test.

Not enough study.

Few notes are brand new.

Maybe gonna to keep for another semester for repeat.

Bid farewell to my grade,

Say hello to Mr. Probation.

He will take everything away from me.

Not worth for any sympathy,

I deserved it.

Feesyolohgeeeeeeeee

I can't finish study!

There is a voice keeps annoying me....

"These kinds of questions, my MOTHER also know laR~~~"

ARGHHH!!!

I can't concentrate!

My mind has flown to Gombak.

Maikrobaiyologee

I just realised, I can't finish study.
Tired.

我不要， 我决定

我不要再看见

我不要再理会

我不要再介意

我不要再伤心

我不要再付出

我不要再等待

我不要再失望

我不要再心疼

我不要再喜欢

我不要

我不要了...

我决定不去看

我决定不去理

我决定不不去介意

我决定不去伤心

我决定不付出

我决定不等待

我决定不失望

我决定不心疼

我决定不喜欢

我决定

我决定了...

A Picture in Mind

Suddenly, a picture came into my mind.

I saw my grandpa came back after dialysis.

Colours drained out from his face, pale...

He walked to the an old lying chair.

He sat on it,Lying down slowly.

He smiled to me, "Didi, can you take a small cup of hot water for me?"

I was 6 years old. I really don't much pain he had suffered after dialysis.

I took a small plastic blue cup, dispensed some hot water and added with some warm water.

I passed it to him.

"Thankyou" he said.

He took the cup I handed to him.

He slowly drank the hot water.

I was wondering, "How he can finish those hot water?"

I do not have the knowledge on kidney failure at that time.

Now I acquired.

I know how much pain he had been through.

How he doted me when I was young.

How he brought me to buy ice cream by his motorbike.

I couldn't stop my tearing streaming down from my eyes,

I think this is one of the most unforgetful memory I had.