A friend in need, is a friend indeed

I thought I could ease my mind,

In fact, I can't.

There is a misunderstanding still going on.

Being emotionless, is really not my type.

I try to be silent.

I can't imagine, if I'm being ignored by another best friend,

I already lost a best friend, I don't know how I lost him,

I don't know the reason, I got no chance to ask,

I don't know what to do, I just apologized with no reason.

I texted him, but no reply.

He deleted my msn, facebook, maybe even my phone number.

I lost a friend that I'm proud of,

I told everyone around me about him,

but now, I scare people asking me about him,

What I can do is just shake my head,

"I don't know".

I can't contact him again,

I don't how he's getting on,

I don't whether he graduated or not,

or he's now working in China dy?

Why?

Having a girlfriend, made you became like this? Unlikely...

My fault? Yeah, maybe.

I just lost contact with him.

Now, really is my fault.

I cracked a joke that spoilt everything.

I know shouldn't crack this kind of jokes.

I apologize.

If you know me well,

I hope you know I didn't mean it.

It's just a joke.

I'm sorry.

(To my dear girlfriend- Please do not ask me about all these, I know you'll be reading. Hope you can understand how I feel.)